Strange nightmare last night about a magician who was distorting my vision so everything around me looked different and I could not see him. Twas dark and terrifying. I awoke in the middle of the night, and the nightmare was still going on. I dreamed he was in my room hiding himself from me. I forced myself to open my eyes and work through the fear to look around and see things as they really were, and then I realized it was nothing. Very emotional and went back to sleep.
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Power, Love, and Control
“Where love rules, there is no will to power and where power
predominates, there love is lacking. The one is the shadow of the
other.” –Carl JungSo much relationship advice is about how to get what you want, how to make the other person happy so you can get what you want, etc. Open up “Men’s Health,” and you might see an article titled, “How to Sleep With Your Girlfriend Within 24 Hours,” or Cosmopolitan “How to Get Him to Not Be Stupid in Front of My Friends.”
And yet, in an ideal relationship, it isn’t one person or the other in control, it is equal, each side just trying to make the other happy. You are working together. Instead of thinking, “I want her to give me a massage” I should be thinking, “I wonder if giving her flowers would make her happy.” In fact, I might even ask, “how can I make you happy?”
This is not easy, because sometimes I really want a massage. Love is not easy. It hurts to love someone. But once you do, seeing them happy is the best feeling in the world.
Go forth! Be happy, and love!
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first freestyle artwork
Here is my attempt to draw my hand. Despite the fact that it is quite deformed, with some fingers way too large and some way too small……I can say it is abstract art.
So here it is:
I am happy with it, inasmuch as it is significantly more complicated than anything I’ve ever even tried to draw before. -
Latest Artwork
Here is my latest drawing exercise, a blind contour exercise, which means I was trying to draw the edges of the object without looking at what I was drawing.
LOL notice I went off the paper!
Of course, without seeing what you are drawing, you can not make it look real, but that is ok, you are just trying to improve your eye, to learn to see what is there. Here is what I was drawing:
When I first looked at it, I thought, “It has no lines! Just the edge! How can I spend 30 minutes drawing that? It is such a simple thing!” Then as I looked at it I almost became overwhelmed by the complexity and number of lines. In the end it was very relaxing and euphoric. I am of the opinion that everyone should learn to draw lol.
It helps me understand Jackson Pollock.
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Friends
Coaster given to me by someone I cared a lot about. She cared about me, too. She really meant it, too. Of course, it didn’t help her stay with me, so I guess some people don’t mind not being just a biscuit. Or maybe she was able to be just a biscuit with more than one person. C’est la vie. Realistically I WANT her to be able to be herself with everyone, not just me. It is more healthy that way, and better for her.I never figured out what she did want. Maybe she just DIDN’T want me. That would have been ok too, but it hurt a lot how she turned her back to me. Was that necessary? We were friends.
She was going after what she wanted most.
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How long do you think it’ll take for the U.S. economy to improve?
The first signs of recovery will come in May or June, when the final big ARM mortgages are set to reset their interest rates.
That will be the bottom of housing problems, because then it will become clear how much those mortgage backed securities are actually worth, and it will become clear which banks are going to fail and which will survive.
It’s been a bubble that spread from the dot com to housing and now to the government (ie, look at the price of treasury bonds). States like California still need to deal with their overspending (there’s a chance of bankruptcy there, it’s pathetic), and that’s going to hit the economy some more.
The problem is people and governments going wild on debt. It’s not a particularly sound way to run a country or a household, and it will probably end up with some nice inflation.
Once you see governments starting to pay more attention to their debt, that’s when you can know that it is getting close to the end.
I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!
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Evolution of how I dress
I used to only buy clothes when the ones I had wore out. Sometimes I wore hand-me-downs. As I’ve developed a fashion sense, the clothes I wear have changed.
First I wanted to find clothes that just didn’t look bad. I kind of had an idea of colors, and learned to recognize which clothes fit and which didn’t. That was great, girls started noticing me a lot more at that point.
Then after a while I realized how I dress portrays who I am as a person. I tried to wear clothes that made me look powerful. I tended to get clothes that looked like a capable businessman, with a nice suit, an overcoat, or a wild explorer (think Aragorn from Lord of the Rings). I can move from the boardroom to the backwoods in the same afternoon (and look good the whole time!). I did things like try on $5000 suits. haha. So much fun. You should try it if you haven’t.
Now I’ve changed again, instead of wearing clothes that cover me up, that make me look powerful, I’ve been going for clothes that sit back and let the real me come out. I am powerful, even if some of the power is latent. I don’t need clothes to show that to people. All I need to do is let the real me shine through. So more simple things, maybe a t-shirt (which is easier now that I am in better shape, ha!), I don’t need to get exotic wool suits (even though they sure are nice). It is I who makes my clothes look nice, not the clothes that make me look nice.
The end.
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Fam
Here is the latest picture of my family:
I think I look rather good
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If you haven’t seen this yet……..
You really should.
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Friends, love and everything
My friend told me today, “Your true friend is the one that brings out the best in you.”
I thought about it and said, “Very true. And the ones you love are the ones you bring out the best in.”
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